oops 3 months later and i am back here.

anyway, these few months had been super happening. one thing is, exams!!! so damn stressful...

the next? well there's a straight person who knows abt me in gakkai. lol. well maybe just as good. i have a load removed from my heart. i really hates to hide things, and so it is so difficult to keep my identity a secret.

anyway, recently finally get to meet a guy whom i have known since december. he is also from gakkai. he is 20 years older than me, and of course, there will be an age gap. he is very nice. talk a lot with him, over things form politics to gakkai, to relationship. he is currently facing some relationship problems but i believe that he is able to overcome it. he is a strong man, but then being strong, one will also have a tinge of weakness. sometimes we will feel weak, after a long period of being mentally taxed. it's bad. therefore we really need to really know how to approach our problems and have a clear determination. i do admit i will lose my focus at times, but i will try to keep in focus.

recently been losing my focus. is it a post exam blues? i dunno. i seems to have a lot of things to do, and i dunno how to start. i think i will write a schedule and write down what i need to achieve by the end of the month. interview is coming too, and i also need the courage. i really am a timid person, nv been to an interview before, and dunno how to do it. i dun even know what to wear to the interview. haha. i will go back to my books and read up on what i need to know abt the subject.